Monday, February 11, 2013

Birth... to plan or not to plan?

Birth plans seem to be quite a controversial topic in the birth community, especially when it comes to hospital-based providers who often chuckle at the idea of birth plans, raising feelings of disemporwerment and disrespect in the parents-to-be. Providers often feel that birth plans are a futile exercise in attempting to control what cannot be predicted, often citing women with birth plans as those whose labors end up being longer than usual or more complicated than others. There is also a thinly veiled sense of "scoffing" at those women coming in with birth plans... on the lines of "Who does she think she is?" trying to spell out what "we" should or should not do to help her out, she doesn't have a clue, she's not the doctor!

And so the dilemma arises... who is laboring and delivering? The woman or the providers? Whose knowledge matters? Does embodied knowledge matter at all anymore in today's medical world? And should birth really be so deeply entrenched in and spelled out by actors of the medical world?

I think I am getting derailed... I was talking about birth plans, wasn't I?

Pam England writes about birth plans as "a ritual of modern pregnancy" initially created with the aim of providing parents-to-be with the opportunity of assuming a more active role in birth. She writes about the useful insights that come with observing the reactions of providers as they share their plans with them. At the same time, she expresses her current stand on birth plans and the reasons why she generally discourages parents from creating one. According to Pam England, author of Birthing from Within, the need to write a birth plan often comes from anxiety and mistrust in providers, a need to enhance one's sense of control of over the unknown, and a general lack of sef-confidence and confidence in the partner's ability to express oneself during the throws of labor. She further writes about how in the end, Mother Nature may have a way of surprising she who was busy planning ways in which to fend off external forces, without spending sufficient time establishing trust in herself and her own ability to give birth immersed in her own wisdom and power.

 
Well, let me tell you about Mother Nature and the trick she played on one of my doula clients! Mama K. had planned to call me at the start of her labor sometime this month (her due date isn't until Feb. 19th) so that I could meet her at her home and help her labor at home for as long as possible prior to heading to the hospital to deliver. She had not put together a formal birth plan, but we had talked at length about what she valued and desired for her birth. She realized that birth was a mystery that would unfold unpredictably and had developed a trusting relationship with her provider, who was aware of her desire to keep her birth as free of unnecessary intrusions and procedures as possible. I had shared with her some excerpts from the Birthing From Within book, to help her develop a better understanding of how her inner power and wisdom would guide her through labor, and had prepared the next batch of excerpts to share with her this week as I touched base with her briefly. When the famous Nemo Blizzard hit, I texted her jokingly about how that day would be a perfect day for an unassisted home birth, since all roads were filled with snow, officially closed by order of the governor, and yet to be plowed (it was also ten full days prior to her due date). No response. The following day (yesterday) I got a text from her about how she was exhasuted and ready to take a nap. Her water had broken the previous morning (the same day I had texted her) and that after an adventurous ride with plow trucks and ambulances, she finally made it to the hospital to deliver her baby girl, whom she was already madly in love with! The irony of Mother Nature and birth planning!

I will be talking to my client today and getting the full birth story... in her text message she sounded empowered and roaring with happiness!

Congratulations Mama K. and welcome to the world Baby P.: you made quite an entrance!!! :-)

Best,

LactoDoulaDrPH

 

Sunday, June 17, 2012

No, I did not write my manuscript...
No, I did not even start writing my manuscript...
Yes, I am feeling particularly overwhelmed at the moment and writing here is one way to sort through my thoughts...
Albert Einstein is credited for many things, but there is one thing that he apparently said that resonates with me right now: "In every difficulty, lies opportunity." I find that every time I am feeling challenged, overwhelmed, and super stressed out, I turn to my  organizational self and try to "clean house". Tonight I not only literally cleaned house, but I also was able to make some sense into my educational loans (which aren't due yet) but hover just slightly below $100,000... I definitely went over board on this borrowing business!!! Good thing I plan on working in the public sector for a while and therefore I hope to be able to qualify for the public service forgiveness plan... but I will try and figure all of that out this week if I can make the necessary calls.

Finances weren't really what was stressing me out today though. Relationship matters always take the winner prize when it comes to throwing me in a tizzle...  and so after yet another series of fights with dear husband and yet another weekend of crazy kids in the house, I just could not handle it any longer and crumbled... just like a cookie!

Here are the challenges I need to tackle in no particular order at the moment:

  • Fixing my marriage
  • Getting back in shape
  • Nurturing my other self... all that I could be if I ever had the guilt-free  time to be it!
  • Paying my debt down
  • Saving for retirement
  • Investing in my first home
  • Choosing a dissertation topic
  • Applying for dissertation funding
  • Getting a higher paying job
  • Traveling to visit family in all four corners of the world every year
  • Traveling with the kids as a way of teaching them life, culture, history, geography, and a fearless sense of possibility
  • Preparing for my qualifying exams
  • Preparing for my next conference presentation
  • Preparing my famous manuscript
  • Nurture my friendships
  • Nurture my family ties
Not  insignificant challenges... where do I start????????? How do I break them down in manageable chunks that don't feel so damn overwhelming???? Which do I need to focus most on first? Which can I leave for last? Uggghhhh.....

Saturday, March 24, 2012

57 DAYS to write, edit, and submit a manuscript for publication!

Ok... so I've been neglecting my intention to write a manuscript with my thesis research results for submission to a peer-reviewed journal. I am now getting to the point where I really need to start working on this as I prepare to present my research at an international conference in Florida this summer. All I need to do is put together 2000 to 3500 words and jump, leap, twirl into this unknown world of academic publishing... and hopefully not fall flat on my face!

I need to stop procrastinating and start working on it. It doesn't help that I feel I could redo my analysis or perhaps delve into my data even deeper before sending out my results for publishing... but as a budding qualitative researcher I need to come to peace with wrapping up my analysis and moving on to other projects, otherwise I could potentially look at these data over and over again with ever new fascination without end! Ahhhh!

I got inspired by 50 days to write a book I found written by Kathleen Kendall-Tackett. In this blog she documented her journey as she challenged herself to write a book from start to finish in 50 days. She set up this personal challenge with a deadline that coincided with a travel departure to Europe. What can I use as a deadline milestone to spur me into focused action? Could I perhaps use the beginning of Summer classes as my deadline with the idea that I will not want to have this hanging over my head anymore by then? If I did that, then I could refer to the article in my july presentation as either "submitted" or even "accepted" if I am ever so lucky... or maybe even as "in press"! :-)

Too bad that I will have a trillion othe papers and presentations to write in the meantime as well, but to be completely honest, I am not the best time maximizer and often find myself spending away my evenings surfing the internet and producing ZERO! So, if perhaps, I had this personal challenge set up for myself, maybe... just maybe, I would start using my evenings more productively again. What do you say, are you ready for this challenge? Can you finish the semester with a bang and start the new semester with a completed and submitted manuscript??? That's 57 days (from tomorrow 03/25 until Sunday 05/13) and of course, I would need to recruit my co-authors support with editing and revisions within this timeframe. Let's see if we can do it.

Ready, set, go! 57 days till manuscript submission!!!!!!

Monday, March 5, 2012

Birth is Political Because...

I am reposting this short post I found on midwivesofcolor.wordpress.com:

BIRTH IS POLITICAL BECAUSE…

 ”Birth is political because it is an opportunity to create change in our communities. Pregnancy and birth give us ten to fourteen months in which we have the opportunity to educate, guide, and provide a woman with the information, tools, self-esteem, and perspective to empower herself to change her relationship with herself, her children, partner, family, and her community. This change can be replicated throughout her community as this mother leads by example. This has the potential to be a global empowerment, rebirth, and redemption.We are agents of change in society.When I work with a mother, I meet her where she is, whether she wants a natural birth or an epidural. I serve her, support, and am “with her” in the way she needs, without judgment, because maybe this experience has the potential to empower her to walk another step, get a new chance to rebirth herself as a woman, mother, partner, and role model.”   
   ~Claudia Booker, CD (DONA) (ICTC), CCCE, LLLI, BPC, and BPCPA

How feminism found me

I have never been formally exposed to feminist thought. I still haven't had the time to become familiar with the women's feminist movements of recent decades and yet, I often find myself deeply enraged by issues that impinge on women's innate value and social standing. 

A very recent example is the contentious political debate about Obama Care's mandate for all health insurance policies to cover birth control methods. Not only is it jaw-dropping that in this day and age we should even be put in the position to have to defend our right to control our own reproductive health, given the existence of safe technology that aids us in this feat, but even more appalling is the discourse and rhetoric that accompanies this political debate. I can't even write his name on here without feeling nauseated, but really, aren't his remarks offensive and indecent enough to warrant immediate dismissal from his employment??? So why hasn't it happened yet????

Sure, I find his words highly offensive and reprehensible, but another issue that irks me deep down is the fact that in order to raise sympathy for Sandra Fluke and her testimony, which were the object of RL's attacks, the media continuously brings up the fact that birth control is needed by many women to control medical issues related to their reproductive health... why isn't it just as important and valuable to defend a woman''s right to use birth control to prevent her from having an unwanted pregnancy???  Isn't this particular and central function of contraception important in and of itself???? Arrrrggghhhh!!!!


I recently had to articulate my purpose in the field of public health: the reason for which I needed to be engaged in this field for a lifelong career. After several tries at it and multiple revisions, I was finally able to identify the common thread behind "all things public health" that light my fire and drive my passion and mission. My purpose is to influence the maternal and child health field to elevate the role of women and the importance of their health status, independent of their reproductive health choices and capacity. I want my field to recognize and act on the fact that women and their emotional, physical, and social well being are important not just because women may one day become pregnant and have babies, but because women are important in and of themselves regardless of the possible birth outcome they might have. 


I value this perspective specifically as it relates to maternal health. I want women to be treated as whole individuals prenatally, intrapartum, and postpartum and not just as baby-carrying vessels as they embark in a very important journey of motherhood. Framing maternity care from this perspective has implications on how maternity care is organized and delivered. Feminist thought has found me, as I started analyzing my own experiences as a woman experiencing maternity care in the U.S. and have started growing deeply disenchanted with the overwhelmingly suboptimal treatment of new mothers in many U.S. health care facilities.Following is an excerpt from a paper I had to write for one of my graduate classes. It ties some of the readings done for this class to the topic of childbirth. I expect to be reflecting on this and other similar issues more and more as my course of study and professional development continue to take me closer to developing my purpose in the field of maternal and child health: stay tuned!

"One of my main areas of interest in public health is the medicalization of childbirth. I have been finding the materials treated in this class as very informative and definitely applicable to this topic of interest. “Medicalization” is defined by Conrad (1992) as “the process by which nonmedical problems become defined and treated as medical problems” (Conrad, 1992), a term that is appropriately applied to the physiological process of birth, which is increasingly perceived as a medical condition being treated and facilitated through intense active labor management  practices (Martin, 1987). In Listening to Mothers: Report of the First National U.S. Survey of Women’s Childbearing Experiences by Declercq, Sakala, Corry, Applebaum, and Risher (2002) the authors state that “less than 1% of mothers gave birth without at least one of the following interventions: being attached to an electronic fetal monitor continuously or nearly so throughout labor (93%); being connected to an IV line (85%); having their membranes artificially ruptured (67%); being given artificial oxytocin to start or stimulate labor (63%); having a gloved hand inserted into their uterus after birth (58%); using a catheter to remove urine (41%); getting an episiotomy (35%); and having pubic hair shaved (5%).” 

As reviewed in Walsh (2010), there is currently an abundance of conflicting rhetoric surrounding maternity care services and healthy childbirth in the U.S and abroad. Debates entangling conflicting viewpoints surround issues such as the “medicalization” of birth and the generous use of technologies in maternity care settings (Johanson, Newburn, & Macfarlane, 2002; Williams, 2006), as well as the use of labor pain management techniques (Lally, Murtagh, Macphail, & Thompson, 2008; Leap and Anderson, 2008) and the oftentimes conflicting professions of obstetrics and midwifery (Witz, 1992; Donnison, 1988). These debates are further enriched by feminist discourses that analyze these same issues from a woman’s choice and woman’s empowerment standpoint, with authors often finding themselves at odds with each other, as well as at odds with the medical establishment in the context of power differentials and medical patriarchy (Schrom Dye, 1980; Gimenez,1991; Lazarus, 1994; Cahill, 2001; Shaw, 2002; Reiger & Dempsey, 2006; Staton Savage, 2006).

Sullivan (2003), Wilson and Cleary (1995) as well as Hudak et al (2003) present a challenge that medical health care systems have faced for many decades as their practice guidelines, protocols and tools were designed primarily to fit a Cartesian paradigm in which mind and body are treated as separate entities, and the body is seen as a machine to be fixed. This is an issue, which many would argue, is shared in modern obstetrical care. The deeply visceral experience of labor and childbirth is sometimes spoken about in terms of embodiment with the understanding that the bodily experience must be taken in consideration as a whole, including the experience of the emotional mind and the perception of pain (Simkin, 1991). This viewpoint is starkly in contrast with the medical establishment’s propensity to reduce the female body to a sum of physical parts (biological essentialism) and as a flawed machine that needs to be fixed (Davis-Floyd, 2003). It is with this characterization in mind that childbirth moved from an almost exclusively “at home” event to a 99% hospital “procedure”, necessitating the technology, expertise, and increased perceived safety of hospital settings (Corea, 1985). 

In keeping with this rationale, medical providers will often refer to the process of labor and childbirth as a process that is subject to mechanical breakdown using expressions such as “failure to progress”, “incompetent cervix”, and “to section” (Garcia, Kirkpatrick, & Richards, 1990; Hunter, 2006). A fourth-year obstetrics resident interviewed by Davis-Floyd (2003) equaled the maternity care process to an assembly-line production of goods: “We shave’em, we prep’em, we hook’em up to the IV and administer sedation. We deliver the baby, it goes to the nursery and the mother goes to her room. There’s no room for niceties around here. We just move’em right on through. It’s hard not to see it like an assembly line.” (Davis-Floyd, 2003, p.55). 

Sullivan (2003) raises the issue of informed consent as a powerful tool for patients to take greater ownership of medical care decisions affecting their health and quality of life, even if such ownership translates into the effective decision to “choose death” over life-sustaining treatment. A recent statement made by the American Congress of Obstetricians and Gynecologists (ACOG, 2008) criticizes women who choose to give birth at home, rather than in a hospital, by saying that such informed choice is equivalent to “placing the process of giving birth over the goal of having a healthy baby.”  Yet ACOG has yet to find a way to mend its faulty maternity care system, a medical care system that splits the body-mind connection during childbirth and takes complete ownership of the birthing process: a system that is not only inadequate, but can also become highly detrimental.

In a recent study titled New Mothers Speak Out surveying women who had become new mothers in the previous six months, it was found that approximately two out of three (63%) new mothers suffered from varying degrees of depressive symptoms, including “shifting emotions and sleep disturbances (even when the baby was sleeping), […] anxiety, loss of sense of self, and/or mental confusion and guilt.” (Declercq, Sakala, Corry, & Applebaum S, 2008) The same study has been touted as the first research study providing a national estimate of the prevalence of birth-related Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). Whereas historically PTSD has been consistently associated with war and combat experiences, in recent years it has also been linked to other traumatic experiences such as sexual assaults, natural disasters, and road accidents.   

More recently childbirth has joined the ranks of recognized events that could be perceived and experienced as traumatic, not only by the mother, but by all those involved in the birthing event ( Soderquist, Wijma, & Wijma, 2002). Using the Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder Symptom Scale (PSS), the study found that 27% of new mothers were experiencing some to all qualifying symptoms of PTSD (18% of mothers experienced some symptoms associated with PTSD, while 9% met all the qualifying PTSD criteria).  A British study for which results were published in 2000, found a similar prevalence of PTSD in the United Kingdom, with 3% of women suffering from all criteria of PTSD and 24% showing signs of at least one PTSD dimension (Czarnocka & Slade, 2000). Other studies estimating PTSD incidence found rates between 1.5% and 6% of new mothers (Ayers & Pickering, 2001; Menage, 1993). 

Clement (2001) suggests that women who undergo a high number of medical interventions during labor resulting in a surgical delivery, often attribute their cesarean birth to iatrogenic factors and subsequently develop feelings of anger towards their caregivers for facilitating and often pushing upon them interventions that, in their opinion, were not necessary, that created endangering and stressful conditions, all the while without providing sufficient opportunities for involvement in decision making and without providing truly informed consent.   Women interviewed by Clement (2001) expressed feelings of violation using words such as “mutilated”, “butchered”, “like a piece of meat”, and “almost raped”. For an event which is “seminally influenced by psychosocial factors” (Walsh, 2010, p. 491) an approach that ignores or minimizes the embodied experience of the woman is a sign of the struggle between a woman’s personal agency and the social structure in which she is embedded (Walsh, 2010).

In contrast with the trend towards elevating the patient’s subjective experience and concern for quality of life (Sullivan 2003; Wilson and Cleary, 1995), morbidities and complications arising from childbirth are often viewed by the modern health care system as primarily related to the physicality of birth, and more specifically to the primary by-product of birth: the healthy perfect baby. Another obstetrician interviewed by Davis-Floyd stated: “It was what we were all trained to always go after – the perfect baby. That’s what we were trained to produce. The quality of the mother’s experience – we rarely thought about that. Everything we did was to get that perfect baby.” (Davis-Floyd, 2003, p. 57) And so with a lack of tort reform in many U.S. states, obstetricians are feeling the pressure to avoid damaging lawsuits connected to “imperfect babies” resulting from a cesarean delivery that was either not performed or performed too late, with resulting defensive practices acting as one important driving force behind the rising cesarean section trends in the US (Birchard, 1999; Fuglenes, Oian, & Kristiansen, 2009; Declercq, 2009, and personal communication with members of the Florida Perinatal Quality Collaborative, 2010). 

Recent birth activist movements have been pushing for a more “humanized birth” as a way to improve the woman’s subjective experience of birth even within a highly technocratic environment. While explaining the concept of “humanized birth” Wagner (2001) explains that “respecting the woman as an important and valuable human being and making certain that the woman’s experience while giving birth is fulfilling and empowering is not just a nice extra, it is absolutely essential as it makes the woman strong and therefore makes society strong. Humanized birth means putting the woman giving birth in the center and in control so that she and not the doctors or anyone else makes all the decisions about what will happen.” (Wagner, 2001) This is perhaps akin to what Sullivan and others in the field of health care services research would call patient-centered care." 

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

What I have learned and reflected upon so far since I started school and work up here in New England

PRIORITIZATION
  1. Prioritization is a key component of public health leadership, particularly when dealing with finite resources and competing interests. 
  2. Too often, policy makers rely on anecdotal evidence, "gut feelings", special interests-backed information, and incomplete data to prioritize populations' health issues.
  3. Personal and societal values unavoidably come into play when identifying criteria to be used when prioritizing. But at least, when criteria are defined prior to the prioritization process taking place, more rational and efficient decision-making can take place.
  4. Politics and economics always have a spot at the table... it really can't be just about the health and well being of populations.
  5. There are some really neat tried and tested prioritization models out there waiting to be used by more people for the purpose of achieving improved  health outcomes for issues that matter most.
LAW AND ETHICS
  1. There is never a straight answer about whether something is right or wrong... it is quite mind-boggling!
  2. Where does the fine line fall between individual liberty and population health interests? Still mind-boggling...
  3. Principles used to support a certain Supreme Court decision may not be used in the same way in other similar Supreme Court rulings. A lot depends on the societal norms and culture of the time.
  4. The work I am doing (supervising intense case management of high risk pregnancies) may not be deemed as ethical or moral by some people... I am struggling with this myself as I strive to understand where I stand in terms of female empowerment, gender development, reproductive health rights, and maternal and infant health. 
  5. How ethical, moral, and just is DCF involvement in many newborn-removal cases where the mother does not have all the support, tools, and resources necessary to provide a stable environment (as defined by current societal norms)? Why does DCF care about the baby and not a lick about the mother? Wouldn't it be a lot more beneficial in the long term if the mother-baby dyad were treated as one inseparable unit to be supported and nurtured? 
  6. A woman who just gave birth six days ago, was encouraged to bond with and breastfeed her child, was subsequently separated from her newborn right before a three-day weekend during which no work was done to advance the case and assure reunification. In the meantime, she has been experiencing depression and anxiety while coping with incredible loss, as well as an incredibly non-supportive partner who kicked her out  into the streets... in a town where all shelters are full and unable to provide the much needed safety net and shelter. Without a place to stay at tonight (or in the days to come) she doesn't even have a way to store her precious pumped breast milk so that she can be made to feel like she is still taking care of her child in this time of hardship, while allowing the baby to get the much needed breast milk from his own mother. Is this system just incredibly incapable of supporting fellow human beings in a time of need or what? It is very discouraging and quite immoral... how can we, as a society, as agencies, as families and fellow human beings let this happen? It is very troubling... and humbling.
Where there's a will, there's a way... I will find a way to positively affect change in my community for mothers, children, and their families while making the best, most ethical, most efficient, and most effective use of limited resources in an environment of competing interests. Bird by bird... keeping my eye on this prize: improved health outcomes, dignity, psychological and social well being of women and their offspring. 

Friday, September 9, 2011

Serendipity

"If you do follow your bliss you put yourself on a kind of track that has been there all the while, waiting for you, and the life that you ought to be living is the one you are living. Follow your bliss and don't be afraid, and doors will open where you didn't know they were going to be."
Joseph Campbell


I recently moved to a different state, in a town that is not so ideally located in relation to where my doctorate program is taking place, and yet I have felt "at home" from the very beginning and it has been very easy to adjust to life in our new community so far. Serendipity is playing a really large role in my professional career at the moment, as an opportunity has been presented to me, not too long after I moved here, somewhat by chance and destiny-led processes. I am currently exploring the feasibility of it, as it is a full-time opportunity, albeit flexible in nature and potentially closely linked to the work I could be conducting during my doctoral studies.


The opportunity consists of managing a city-based program aimed at reducing infant mortality, infant morbidity, and the number of low birth weight babies born in the city, particularly amongst the largely at-risk population. In this case, the label "high risk" materializes in the form of battered and abused women, socially and economically isolated new immigrants (some legal and some not), users of illegal substances, women living in poverty and suffering from food insecurity, and so on. Through intensive comprehensive case management and coordination with other local MCH services prenatally, intrapartum and postpartum, women enter the program through word of mouth, as well as professional referrals, free of charge, and on a strictly confidential basis. The services provided are quite diverse and include those that would normally be provided by a childbirth educator, a birth doula, a postpartum doula, a lactation counselor, a case worker, a Healthy Start professional, a friend, a family member, all wrapped up into one figure: the Neighborhood Outreach Worker (NOW).


Since its inception thirty years ago, the program has registered a 0 deaths per 1,000 live births rate of infant mortality, compared to the city's 9.8 rate (and the state's and US rates of 6.1 and 6.0 respectively). By the way, the stark differences between the city and the rest of the state as well as the national infant mortality rates are a screaming indicator of health disparities affecting the local population, even when compared to its immediate neighbors in the county itself. As one official put it, "this city is treated as the dumpster of the state."  

No studies or evaluations of the program have been conducted so far and the Director of the Department of Health and Human Services for the city has expressed interest in me conducting doctoral-level research on it to identify possible practices that are contributing to these positive results. Regardless of my dissertation work, for which the topic has not been decided (and is still far from being decided!) I can already think of classes I am currently taking where I could potentially weave this program into assignments for the term. One example is the Health Economics and Financial Management for Public Health class that I am taking this semester: can we make an economic case for the scaling up of programs of this nature? If so, how? Exploring this and figuring out the underlying economic and financial aspects of it will be one of my challenges this semester if I choose to focus on this community program and even moreso if I decide to take on this particular work opportunity!

So it seems like a serendipitous opportunity that was just meant to be, one that I may have even been yearning for the past year at least, but at the same time I am struggling with identifying the right combination and load of work that I feel I can realistically take on and carry out with high quality, strong potential for future development, and fruitful long-lasting relationships and network strengthening.


I'm on the fence... do I leap and believe that the net will appear (adapted from a Taoist proverb) or do I step back, acknowledge my limitations, and choose to forego a really good opportunity that I am just not ready to take on at this point in time because of prior commitments (i.e. commencing a brand new doctoral program with a really cool mentor who also offered me more limited and manageable work opportunities)?

Can you really walk away from something that feels like is meant for you?